First Post!!!

So like the title of my blog says we have been trying to find purpose in our wedded life!

We have been married for a year and a half and have been trying since we got married to have a child of His! We both do not believe in birth control and we believe that God will grant us child(ren) when He says we are ready! Coming to terms with this is a whole other story.

It's been hard and there has been tears, sobs, whispered "I love you", when nothig else seems to comfort. Amidst the sorrow and tears, we have had laughter and smiles and jokes and good times. But as they seem to co-exist, we understand that God will give us hard times and trials. Sometimes it's just plain old hard to understand "why". God doesn't always give us the answers right away and HE knows best and when we get a blessing for Him we will look back and think about all that we have gone through!

It's sometimes is so hard because when you want something so hard it seems to be all you think about! It's takes a lot of head space! It takes over thought patterns when you go to church, at the store, going for walks, watching tv, and so many more places.

We have always pictured a family with 3 or more children and going on family outings and having supper around the table with children, reading bedtimes stories, explaining to them about God and what we all believe and how to talk to Him. There are so many more things we have imagined and we both hope this will all come true one day...

But as it has't just yet we hang onto the hope that one it will! God has a plan for us and for every couple out there.


but those who hope in the LORD
will renew ther strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
They will run and not grow weary,
They will walk but not be faint.

Isaiah 10: 31